I deleted X from my facebook friends.. Kinda childish but it was just too disturbing to see him on the chat every time I log in.. He's not going to be my partner at our school dance, he's too busy with school. Well anyway I got a new partner the same day he cancelled so.. Whatever. I just want him out of my life :/ Took quite a lot of concerta cause we had our music performance in front of our whole school today.. I was scared to death but by the time we were on stage I was relaxed enough and it went well I think :) How are you people?? I've been so busy with hating myself, purging and all the things we have to do for school that I haven't posted for days.. I already miss you guys </3
I've lost too many people in too short time, the smallest things effect me so thatI just want to cry and I hate it.. Especially at school. I'm can't seriously be this weak :( I'm glad to say that I don't think many people hate me atm though..
I don't know what to say my head feels so empty and my life is basically based on my daily routines but I don't feel alive at all anymore. I'm just here.. you know?
Dead inside, but breathing..
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I totally understand you :(
ReplyDeleteI wish all this shit would just stop, for all of us. stay strong<3
DeleteNot childish at all. If you want him out of your life then deleting him from Facebook is a good first step. You don't need to be reminded about him every time you go on it.
ReplyDeleteI've lost too many people too. I understand how it feels too well. It comes in waves, anger, crying, numbness, repeat.
Hang in there <3
exactly what I thought, but still I feel so stupid and I don't think he actually even gives a shit..
DeleteOh honey I wish we wouldn't have to go through this :(
love u<3 stay strong