Two spaced

I'm hovering between these two spaces where I want to talk to him versus the one where I'm fine not talking to him. I have to try to control it even if that ruins things. I can't be the one who needs the other person more than they need me. All of this stresses me out to the level where my mind starts pushing him further and further away and he told me he could feel it. However, there's nothing I can really do about it, we'll have to see how this pans out. If that connection between us was to break now I would break a little more. 

 

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