Passionately bitchy to passionately charming

Sadly I'm starting to doubt the Paris thing. Staying with him is not about saving money and I'm itching to book a hotel. Nothing bad has happened but I don't want to be more attached than him. My problem is that I barely get attached to anything at all because I don't care, but if I care about someone then I would do anything for them and it becomes a whole other problem because I fight my feelings until the bitter end. He sometimes kinda blows me off and doesn't reply to my messages as fast as I would like him to but it shouldn't be a problem because "when he has the time" he talks so much I can barely get a word in and he's so sweet. Unfortunately it doesn't take away the negative feelings I've had. This whole thing we have going on is so illogical since we've only met once but the connection we had was insane. It just makes me feel like an idiot when he doesn't reply right away because I'm used to surrounding myself with people who give me what I want when I want it. The ones who don't are disposable except for him because now I fucking care.

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